How I Became A Vegetarian

*** This only lasted for a few months, when I realized that I am sensitive to soy and substituting meat with it made me quick ill. At the time, it did however help me with my loss. One of my loves, Clive had to be euthanized about two weeks ago. He was a special cat. We shared 15 1/2 years together. As he lay there on the cold metal table, I had a split second thought of "Why or [or more so] how do I eat meat?" I felt his fur for one last time, kissed him on his nose and closed the door behind me.

The days passed and I continued to eat meat as usual. A friend who was helping me move out of my grieving state, suggested that I go sit in nature and ask Clive's spirit to help. He had been visiting me in my dreams and knew that he was with still with me.

Luckily for me I have a backyard at my apartment building that I tend to. I come to find peace when I am reconnecting there. So last Tuesday, I sat and meditated to help remove any negative energy in general. As I was loving my garden, remembering Clive and being in the stillness, I got an impression telling me not to eat meat. It occurred to me, that if I have a love for the earth and animals as I say and think I do, than I would not aid the harm of both.

I immediately came in and visited GOVeg.com to see how I should go about it. I began watching videos of what I have been ignoring all these years. Animals are subjected to horribly cruel practices. I felt the love I have for Clive when I saw these poor animals fighting for their lives - with no chance of survival. My heart broke and without a beat - I went cold turkey ( no pun intended ).


I am starting as lacto. Organic, of course - whenever possible.

We Are Never Truly Departed

I am getting better each day as I remember that Clive is alive in me. His soul speaks to mine and he guides through the sorrow of his crossing.

I was really depressed for the past two weeks. I didn't want to get out of bed or talk to anyone except my mom. I could not dismiss my feelings of grief, but I soon remembered that in death there is rebirth. And my boy would not want me to "live" this way. When the sad feelings come up I try to replace them with visions of him happy - not of his last moments....they just continue the suffering. Our suffering. His and mine.

I was feeling guilty; not for taking away his pain by euthanizing him, but for going on with life "without" him. I feel he was a gift from God to help me love, trust and grow. And with his passing, he continues to teach me.

And though I know the sadness will linger, but I can honor him by blessing his life and being grateful he was in mine.

I am sending loving and healing energy to everyone who is in mourning and hope that peace comes to you all.